Yep, final day of the MA. This is officially the last day of term, the due date of our final assignment, and the end of an era, really.
We have a panel presentation to go to at University this afternoon, which should be good. Staff members of the Screen Academy will be there, as well as 3 industry people as panel members. We've got to talk about our aspirations, current projects etc, and (theoretically) they will give us some advice on what to do in the next 6 months.
I really hope I get something out of this. I've had this strange feeling the last couple of weeks - ever since I handed in my feature. I've loved being back at University so much: I've met some wonderful people, been given confidence in my creativity and have pushed myself further than I have since high school. At the moment, though, I'm feeling very sad about it all coming to an end. I feel completely uncertain what to do with myself for the next year. I just want to write. I want to write anything and everything. At least I know that for sure now. It's just strange going into such a competitive industry, knowing how unlikely it is that I'll get a job, knowing how many great people I'm competing with - and knowing some of them personally.
When I did my first degree, getting a job after University didn't seem such a big deal. I had a maths and computing degree under my belt, and there are jobs aplenty if you have that. But I don't want to fall back on these old skills, I don't want to be an administrator or manager again, I want to be creative, I want to make people happy with my words, and I want to actually make a living doing something that makes ME happy too, and doesn't just pay the bills.
Time will tell. Wish me luck for this afternoon - panels make me nervous.